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Is it what people called love? I don't know. But if it yes, I think love is something you haven't expected to come from that one person.
Well, it's funny to think how feelings can change so fast. Not that fast honestly but still that feelings come without we even realize it before and booom! You found yourself is in the condition when you can't even get rid that one person from your mind.
Some months ago I might be still struggling with my feelings for my old crush. But now, nah it's not about him anymore. All those feelings I had for him fly away from me. Yeah, though sometimes I still think about him, but it feels different from what it used to. 

So, I met one person that I never really expected I can be so close with. I never really closed with him and never really knew him before but as month by month changed, my feelings did change too. What makes me amaze is how he can change the ideal image I always have about a guy I want to date.
Well, it's kinda cheesy to say that this new guy really got my heart now. I'm always think of me as a cold person, and also a hard type person even to myself. That's why it's kinda hard to me to be close with other people sometimes. But he can change my thought about that. He give me much of meaning that sometimes you have to open your eyes for the opportunities around you. You have to let go of something in order to give your heart a reward to love and be loved. 

Ok, I know it's kinda too late to post about new year stuff but since I have plenty of things to do these days like the exam preparation, graduation, and university test thingy, I can't post it on the first day of January. But hey since it still the first month of the year, I think it's okay. Better to be late than never, rite?

Well, there are lot of things I wish I could achieve in this new year. But before of all, I'd like to do flashback to last year. I've been through so many things last year and for me 2013 was a meaningful year esp in the last three months. Though in those times I was so busy, I enjoyed many things. Was it because I know that'll be a great memories because I'll graduate from highschool in less than five months away or what I don't even know. All I know is I just have to enjoy every moment before it's over and I'll regret everything. 

For this new year, I haven't made any resolution yet. And talk about it, I think I've never made any before hahaha. 

But a minute ago, I made my resolution that are : get a good score in exam and graduate, then be able to enter the university and take the major that I want.

I just want that for this year. It's not that hard, so I hope I can make my resolution come true.

Ah and my ultimate resolution is to find the true happiness in life. I don't think I'll get it this year. It'll take years and many experiences to know what the real happiness is but I won't give up. Hope I can get to know that soon. 

"Happy new dreams. Happy new days. Happy new desires. Happy new ways. Happy new year. And happy new YOU." ☺